Emotions

Emotions, these are the one of the most polarizing factor in any relationship or in general humans. How so ? Being peaceful is a state of bliss. What is that state ? Where emotions are not present ? Or Where emotions are hidden ? For me, it is the state where we experience it, and go through it.

Being in a state of stillness is mind is what all these monks tried to achieve, well I can reach that state being indifferent. Is that the same ? Being indifferent and being still ... No they are largely different. I used to think "She is making me upset", "He is testing my patience". I try to prove to all those around me that I am right. I always want to break the chain where I controlled by others and used to get angry /upset /sad by the actions of others. The time when I allow them to play around with my emotions, I lose the battle. I am actually getting controlled by them, except indirectly.

Am I supposed to be a monk, heartless, emotionless ? Definitely not. Am I supposed to control and suppress my emotions ? Nope. that is not the intent. It is as simple as that, listen to others, but never let them poke you. It is impossible to be like that when my mom or for that matter, you do something. So what is that I am supposed to do ? Choose my emotions ? Wow, that sounds too philosophical ... Isn't it ? It is not that complicated actually. Today is the day Dad died 4 years ago. So what is the easiest emotion to experience ? Sadness. That is human tendency. But is that what he wanted to us to be sad ? I doubt that. This is the time to thank him for the life that we have today.Remember the times, when he makes those short calls to ask how we are ? Remember the times, when he used to ask for accounts for our spending and well we never gave it. Those times, where you and him used to take the walk in the farm. Life is actually not that complicated, it is simple with array of emotions to choose for a situation.

We tend to choose the easiest one and the obvious one most of the times when it comes to a situation. These are times, you remember the main who worked from age of 10 till his last breath, the man who didn't even know his birthday , the man who decided to fight poverty by hard work, the man who stood tall and will remain so in a lot of people's hearts. We can proudly claim, we got the best times with him , he being our father. It is a choice bro, to remember the great things we achieved in his short life.

It doesn't matter, how long we live, it matters how we live. It is a simple choice to make and you don't need to be a philosopher to do that.

I don't regret of losing him not because he didn't matter, but I don't because I still have you, brothers for life, friends for life